This time of year always makes me pretty emotional. Almost six years ago we unexpectedly lost my brother, Ryan. Now, all these years later, I still tend to flashback to what life was like right before he passed. He and I were both students at Century College, and we would always get dinner together on Monday nights because I had a break between my afternoon and evening classes. Having always gone to a small Christian school, it was so nice to have my big brother show me the ropes. I always remember Ryan, but this time of year is a different kind of remembering, and it's always something specific that sets off the season. This morning it happened in church when we sang "Blessed Be Your Name." I immediately flashed back to Ryan's funeral which of course brought the tears on in no time. "Wow," I thought, "I can't believe it's already that time of year again." It didn't take long for me to begin processing the idea that my little Via will not know the earthly version of her Uncle Ryan. So sad. Of all the guys I have ever known, Ryan was always one of the best with kids. Audrey, Lucy, Via, and all futures would have been completely enamored with Uncle Ryan. I know this beyond a shadow of a doubt, and I can't wait to start telling Via stories about her crazy Uncle Ryan. I also can't wait to some day meet my Uncle Joel who was also taken too soon. I'm so thankful for memories and stories that can be shared about the ones we love.
This Thursday, October 25, I will be 40 weeks. I'm so excited to have this baby, but I always told myself not to get disappointed until we pass the 41 week mark. I believe that she will come when she is ready. Justin and I just pray that she is healthy and that we don't experience any complications during labor and delivery. Another fun perk right now is thinking that every day could be my last day at work. It definitely makes me work harder than ever before, because I never know if I am going to be back in the next day. The days and weeks are flying by and she will be here before we know it! The sooner the better in my opinion. :)
About a year before he passed.
This Thursday, October 25, I will be 40 weeks. I'm so excited to have this baby, but I always told myself not to get disappointed until we pass the 41 week mark. I believe that she will come when she is ready. Justin and I just pray that she is healthy and that we don't experience any complications during labor and delivery. Another fun perk right now is thinking that every day could be my last day at work. It definitely makes me work harder than ever before, because I never know if I am going to be back in the next day. The days and weeks are flying by and she will be here before we know it! The sooner the better in my opinion. :)
Participated in the CAPE (Child Abuse Prevention and Elimination) 5k yesterday. Bonus points for dressing like a superhero. Good thing I married superman!
Yes....crazy Uncle Ryan. Oh, the stories you'll tell. Love you, sweet girl. - Rachel Palkki
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Ginny Wittig Rassier He was a treasure! Loved that smile!!
October 21 at 8:07pm · Like..
Gillian Lawrence I always think about Ryan and all of you during this time of year as well.
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